WTF Am I Supposed To Do ?

5:40 AM

Been up all night, since about 11 AM yesterday. 2009 isn't looking promising at all as of yet. The only things I've had come my way is a bi-polar white girl that attends my sister college, my final check from Toys 'R' Fuckin' Us, and some new boxes of Cinnamon Toast Crunch.

On the real, I don't see everyone's infatuation with white women. I mean, I could understand if the chick were cool & shit, but shorty seems over the top. Not to mention, the last two white girls I've spoken to have had hints of racism in their speech & phrases. Then again, they're talking to me. Contradiction or do they think they can bleach my skin ?

Through the night I've done nothing but talk to said chick, talk on the phone for a short stint with a woman who may be going to jail soon, and watch some movies on some nigga nigger nigga bootleg shit. Yes Man, Seven Pounds, & The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. By far, Brad Pitt wins. Yes Man is nothing but Bruce Almighty with a new premise. & Seven Pounds is about Will Smith committing suicide and giving his organs to people who are deserving because he feels guilty for his wife's death (plus SEVEN others). Did I mention I was going to spoil the movie ?

SPOILER ALERT!!!!!!

The Button jawn was hot though, more of a "new" Forrest Gump. I read the book though, and of course they left some details out. Well, let me rephrase... the book/short story is MAD different from the movie. The movie was modernized, obviously. Check out the book though, F. Scott Fitzgerald is that nigga. I didn't like his other book though with the crazy white girl. That 'The Great Gatsby' shit.

6:01 AM

I just realized I'm the best writer you all have a pleasure of being in direct contact with. When I have written joints lately like; G.I.M., Mistaken Identity, or My Name Is...; it is easy to see I could've went a different route with my life. Like a different major maybe. But with no further ado, an excerpt from G.I.M.

"I'm starting to think I need a change of plans right along
With everything else, the phone number has been the same for too long
I just got a call from my ex girl, I let her hit the voice mail
I told my next girl I'm gone, but she tries to make it a choice still
The girl I'm with now is here until March
Little does she know... when Spring comes she'll know how a divorce feels"

Please, no autographs after 5 AM. There are times like this when I wish I still had musical connects in the city. Dru lives in NY, and while he COULD send me tracks to record over, I still don't have a mic. Either way, I have all the beats in mind (a joint by Ben Benjamin is PERFECT for the close). It all comes in time though, I have a crazy amount of expenses as of the past couple of months with the way my luck has been running. Just have to maintain.

"'Cause no, I don't have cornrolls or hood tattoos;
But, I can fuck up any track that I rap to ."

I do have new mindsets though. And with everything that has happened, it's enlightened me to a new extent. I don't believe in New Year's resolutions. People shouldn't change just because there is a new numeral on the end of the 4 digit year. I'll be doing the same thing I have been doing, because everything changes in due time.

I do plan on something different though, and that's using uTorrent much more.

6:10 AM

Hah, anyway. This is just a slight update. Though more of a update than my last. You can understand, I wasn't in the mood. Oh, and if you have AIM, I'd suggest hitting me up there. That's where I'm most readily available. Just drop your SN in the comment box, and I got you. You'll know it's me when you see the screen name.

Otherwise, peace be to you.

& My Name Is. . .